Calling

The next day again John was standing with two of his disciples, and he looked at Jesus as he walked by and said, “Behold, the Lamb of God!” The two disciples heard him say this, and they followed Jesus. Jesus turned and saw them following and said to them, “What are you seeking?” And they said to him, “Rabbi” (which means Teacher), “where are you staying?” He said to them, “Come and you will see.” So they came and saw where he was staying, and they stayed with him that day, for it was about the tenth hour. One of the two who heard John speak and followed Jesus was Andrew, Simon Peter's brother. He first found his own brother Simon and said to him, “We have found the Messiah” (which means Christ). He brought him to Jesus. Jesus looked at him and said, “You are Simon the son of John. You shall be called Cephas” (which means Peter).
John 1:35-42

Calling

Some days I don't know
how to follow
what to write
or how to go forward.

Some days there is a testing
in me, a wanting to see
a need to touch to know
I am not alone.

Some days begin
without enthusiasm
and fear bubbles up drowning
faith's regular breath.

Some days I walk alone
there are no other shadows
no lights on the path
no voices in the dark.

Some days we lose our way
step out of line
ache for comfort and affluence
rather than the barely enough for today.

Some days it is hard to follow
we just want a solid home
a place of comfort and support
our familiar faces and things.

Some days it is hard to follow
the one who took on the cross
the one who took on evil
and died for the sake of love.

Some days Jesus lost his temper
asked for the cup to be taken
was as fearful as the rest
and needed comfort in the dark.

Some days we seem to suffer
alone and afraid we whimper in prayer
we are never alone and always lead
held tenderly by a strong hand.