Sunday, November 29, 2015

Advent 1 - Mary Letters - Day 1

Jesus said, "There will be signs in the sun, the moon, and the stars, and on the earth distress among nations confused by the roaring of the sea and the waves. People will faint from fear and foreboding of what is coming upon the world, for the powers of the heavens will be shaken. Then they will see 'the Son of Man coming in a cloud' with power and great glory. Now when these things begin to take place, stand up and raise your heads, because your redemption is drawing near."
Then he told them a parable: "Look at the fig tree and all the trees; as soon as they sprout leaves you can see for yourselves and know that summer is already near. So also, when you see these things taking place, you know that the kingdom of God is near. Truly I tell you, this generation will not pass away until all things have taken place. Heaven and earth will pass away, but my words will not pass away.
"Be on guard so that your hearts are not weighed down with dissipation and drunkenness and the worries of this life, and that day catch you unexpectedly, like a trap. For it will come upon all who live on the face of the whole earth. Be alert at all times, praying that you may have the strength to escape all these things that will take place, and to stand before the Son of Man." Luke 21:25-36

Dear Aunt Elizabeth,

Today  I was sitting under the fig tree in our yard, keeping out of the sun. I am so bothered by the heat these days and feel as round as a ripe fig myself. I overheard Daddy and Momma arguing inside about what is to be done with me. They have taken Joseph's offer of marriage but neighbors are saying horrible things. Daddy has to walk with Momma to the market these days. People insult her and refuse to sell her the necessities. They call us heathens.

No one believes that I am still a virgin and that God has ordained these things. Obviously from what my parents have said, they doubt my sanity. I'm beginning to doubt myself as well. I feel like crying all the time and Joseph hates it when I do. He tries to comfort me and be strong, but he is so uncomfortable with any of the details of the pregnancy. Momma said to talk to her about woman things and leave Joseph out of it for now. But he will soon be a father and needs to know what's going on. I sometimes feel like everyone is against me.

Auntie Elizabeth, I know you understand. People probably think you're way too old to be pregnant. And with Uncle not talking, it must make everyone wonder. Let's make sure we pray for each other every day. Otherwise, I'm not sure I'm going to make it through. This anxiety and anger are hard to live with.

Sending you love,


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