New Year's Eve 2024 - Mary Letter Day Twenty-Six

1 God is our refuge and strength, 

a very present help in trouble. 

2 Therefore we will not fear, 

though the earth be moved,  

and though the mountains be 

toppled into the depths of the sea; 

3 Though its waters rage and foam, 

and though the mountains 

tremble at its tumult. 

4 The Lord of hosts is with us; 

the God of Jacob is our stronghold. 

5 There is a river whose streams 

make glad the city of God, 

the holy habitation of the Most High.

6 God is in the midst of her; 

she shall not be overthrown; 

God shall help her at the break of day. 

7 The nations make much ado, 

and the kingdoms are shaken; 

God has spoken, and the earth shall melt away. 

8 The Lord of hosts is with us; 

the God of Jacob is our stronghold.

9 Come now and look upon the works of the Lord, what awesome things he has done on earth. 

10 It is he who makes war to cease in all the world; 

he breaks the bow, and shatters the spear, and burns the shields with fire. 

11 "Be still, then, and know that I am God; I will be exalted among the nations; 

will be exalted in the earth." 

12 The Lord of hosts is with us; the God of Jacob is our stronghold. Psalm 46

Dear Auntie,

I have been under the weather these past few days. I am so disappointed, as I was mending so well and feeling so much stronger. We have been staying very close here, protecting the baby. Joseph has an appointment for his registration, but it isn't for a few days. While he was out the day before, he found us some food from a food stall, which we now suspect was tainted. I've been so sick but finally getting better. Joseph didn't partake of any of the food, fortunately as he was at the registration office. He has been minding the baby while I have been sick. He brings him for feeding then let's me sleep. Such a kind man, such a good father, an amazing husband. I wouldn't have survived this sickness without him.

The wise woman came this morning and brought me a tea she had brewed to help me feel better. Oh my, it tasted terrible, smelled worse, but I had to drink it because she was watching me like a hawk. It was torture to drink it but I got it all down. She told me the herbs she had used to brew it and gave me the recipe, along with the herbs, in case I needed more. I am feeling much better. The threat of having to drink the stuff again may have been enough for my body to work hard at getting better. I am still weak, but up and around with out little son.

Pray we can leave for home soon. This city is a hard place, not at all like the gardens of home, and I miss my folks so much.

Love,

Mary

First Sunday After Christmas - Mary Letter Day Twenty Five

First Sunday After Christmas
Mary Letter Day Twenty-Five

I will greatly rejoice in the Lord, my whole being shall exult in my God; for he has clothed me with the garments of salvation, he has covered me with the robe of righteousness, as a bridegroom decks himself with a garland, and as a bride adorns herself with her jewels. For as the earth brings forth its shoots, and as a garden causes what is sown in it to spring up, so the Lord God will cause righteousness and praise to spring up before all the nations. For Zion's sake I will not keep silent, and for Jerusalem's sake I will not rest, until her vindication shines out like the dawn, and her salvation like a burning torch. The nations shall see your vindication, and all the kings your glory; and you shall be called by a new name that the mouth of the Lord will give. You shall be a crown of beauty in the hand of the Lord, and a royal diadem in the hand of your God. Isaiah 61:10-62:3

Dear Elizabeth,

I am writing to you as to not frightened my parents again. We are still in Bethlehem, awaiting registration and my healing. The wise woman, Sarah, refuses to let me do any long walks until she says so! We are here for the time being, trying to be patient, which is hard. Yesterday, things got pretty dangerous here in the city. We woke to the sounds of wailing! So many women crying for their children. Joseph told me to hide deep in this barn with the baby and he went out to find out what was going on. He came back shaking with fear and anger. He told me that Herod had heard of a child who was to be king, and he told soldiers to take all the little ones and have them killed! They were talking about our little boy! How could any ruler be so cruel? So many families screaming and wailing in their terror and loss! We hid here all day and night. I guess they didn't expect to find a boy child in this humble barn.

Joseph and I sat up late last night, after we heard the horns being sounded. We knew then things were safe for us, at least for the time being.  Our hosts brought us food after the "all clear", and we ate and talked about what we should do. We both said yes to our Lord, but we never expected such danger and challenges. Our jobs now are to do everything to keep this child safe, now we know that the king is looking to destroy him. Jealousy is so destructive in the hands of the powerful. Actually, it is destructive to all humans, isn't it? Please pray for us, as this is truly a fragile and fraught existence. We have to trust that God will see us through, and on days like this, I can't help but be fearful.

Much love,

Mary

Mary Letter Day Twenty Four

1 The Lord is king! Let the earth rejoice; 

let the many coastlands be glad! 

2 Clouds and thick darkness 

are all around him; 

righteousness and justice 

are the foundation of his throne. 

3 Fire goes before him, and consumes

his adversaries on every side. 

4 His lightnings light up the world; 

the earth sees and trembles. 

5 The mountains melt like 

wax before the Lord, before 

the Lord of all the earth. 

6 The heavens proclaim his righteousness; 

and all the peoples behold his glory.

7 All worshippers of images are put to shame,

those who make their boast in worthless idols; 

all gods bow down before him. 

8 Zion hears and is glad, and the towns

of Judah rejoice, because 

of your judgements, O God. 

9 For you, O Lord, are most high over all the earth;

you are exalted far above all gods. Psalm 97:1-9

Dear Mama and Papa,

this little one is growing so fast! He's hungry all the time and sleeps well when he is full. When he's awake he is always looking around, reaching up with his little hands. He loves it when Joseph sings to him and often it seems like he is trying to sing along. I have been resting a good deal as the wise woman and Rachel keep close watch on me. They finally said I could go for a walk outside, but Joseph would have to go with me and carry the baby if I got fatigued. They don't want me to strain myself while I am healing up. The women showed me how to bind the baby to me so that he felt secure, and I wasn't lifting him. They wrapped me up so thoroughly that it took Joseph quite an effort to unbind me. We got laughing quite hard in the process. Rachel heard us and scolded me for laughing saying I could injure myself. Well, sometimes I can't help but laugh! And it helps to deal with the strange circumstances we find ourselves in.

The walk was lovely, the air crisp and the sun was warm. Many stopped to admire our little bundle. He smiled and gurgled at people, charming them all. The city is very crowded, so we had to be very careful where we walked as the animals leave dropping everywhere. The noise of the street is quite overwhelming after life in our little village, but we're both getting used to it. Still we can't wait to be back home. The waiting for an appointment to register has been very frustrating for Joseph. He's really a terrific father and loves this little child. He is willing to help in every way possible and loves holding him so I can sleep. I am truly blessed. We hope it won't be too long before we can finish the business here and be back home. I remember all your words of wisdom Papa. Growing up and having a family means learning to pray and be patient in all circumstances. I now understand!

much love,

Mary

Mary Letter Day Twenty Three

1 Sing to the Lord a new song, 

for he has done marvelous things.

2 With his right hand and his holy arm

has he won for himself the victory. 

3 The Lord has made 

known his victory;

his righteousness has he openly shown 

in the sight of the nations.

4 He remembers his mercy and 

faithfulness to the house of Israel, 

and all the ends of the earth 

have seen the victory of our God. 

5 Shout with joy to the Lord, 

all you lands;

lift up your voice, rejoice, and sing. 

6 Sing to the Lord with the harp, 

with the harp and the voice of song.

7 With trumpets and the sound of the horn, shout with joy before the King, the Lord. 

8 Let the sea make a noise and all that is in it, 

the lands and those who dwell therein. 

9 Let the rivers clap their hands,

and let the hills ring out with joy before the Lord,

when he comes to judge the earth. 

10 In righteousness shall he judge the world

and the peoples with equity. Psalm 98

Dear Aunt Elizabeth,

He's here and he's wonderful, bright eyed and constantly hungry! I was so disappointed when the pains began, and I realized we were having this child right here in this stable. I had some tears and some harsh words for Joseph. Fortunately, the wise woman and our hostess Rachel, got me calmed down and promised all would be well. Joseph checked on me regularly and even though the women shooed him away, his tenderness and worry brought me great hope. He is a wonderful father, and is so willing to hold him, walk with him and even change diapers! The wise woman wants me to get sleep so I can recover from the birthing. Joseph has been so good at letting me sleep and caring for the little boy. I hear him singing to him as he strolls around, and the animals draw near when he sings. I think they believe the songs are for them!

I have regular company as everyone seems to want to see the baby born in the stable. He's not the first ever, of course, but in the midst of tough times, people seem to need positive experiences and reasons to have hope. The lines for registration continue to be long and the scribes seem to be making everyone's lives miserable. Joseph has yet to get an appointment, even though he has pleaded with authorities since we just had a baby. They do not care. This occupying government and their minions are quite soulless it seems. Joseph reminds me that we shall just keep praying and trusting the Lord, and a way will be made for us. His deep faith gives me strength when mine is failing. We both said yes to the Lord, although none of this was what we had in mind! Despite these rough circumstances, we feel very blessed by this child. Every sound he makes and every time he looks at us we can't help but smile and be filled with gratitude. Many people who stop by also feel blessed. We don't understand, really, but trust that our God is bringing hope back to this darkened world.

He's desperately hungry now so I will close this letter. Hope to see you on our way back home.

Love,

Mary

Christmas Day - Mary Letter Day Twenty-Two

                                            Christmas Day 

In those days a decree went out from Emperor Augustus that all the world should be registered. This was the first registration and was taken while Quirinius was governor of Syria. All went to their own towns to be registered. Joseph also went from the town of Nazareth in Galilee to Judea, to the city of David called Bethlehem, because he was descended from the house and family of David. He went to be registered with Mary, to whom he was engaged and who was expecting a child. While they were there, the time came for her to deliver her child. And she gave birth to her firstborn son and wrapped him in bands of cloth, and laid him in a manger, because there was no place for them in the inn. In that region there were shepherds living in the fields, keeping watch over their flock by night. Then an angel of the Lord stood before them, and the glory of the Lord shone around them, and they were terrified. But the angel said to them, "Do not be afraid; for see-- I am bringing you good news of great joy for all the people: to you is born this day in the city of David a Savior, who is the Messiah, the Lord. This will be a sign for you: you will find a child wrapped in bands of cloth and lying in a manger." And suddenly there was with the angel a multitude of the heavenly host, praising God and saying, "Glory to God in the highest heaven, and on earth peace among those whom he favors!" When the angels had left them and gone into heaven, the shepherds said to one another, "Let us go now to Bethlehem and see this thing that has taken place, which the Lord has made known to us." So they went with haste and found Mary and Joseph, and the child lying in the manger. When they saw this, they made known what had been told them about this child; and all who heard it were amazed at what the shepherds told them. But Mary treasured all these words and pondered them in her heart. The shepherds returned, glorifying and praising God for all they had heard and seen, as it had been told them. Luke 2:1-20

Dearest Papa and Mama,

I am writing to tell you that despite our best efforts to get home, our little baby boy came into the world today! He is so strong and healthy, and the wise women said that I am as well. They probably say that to all the new mothers! I was not brave all the time, Mama, and did scream and cry at times. They said that was very normal and I shouldn't be afraid. But our little boy is beautiful and perfect with ten chubby toes and fingers. His face is so beautiful, I can't help staring at him! He also has a voracious appetite! They had to teach me to feed him, and Joseph blushed and turned away while they were teaching me. He's getting more comfortable with it and loves to hold the little one and sing to him so I can sleep. I am so blessed by his good heart and kind ways!

An extraordinary thing happened late last night. We were snuggled asleep under the covers as were all the animals here. We were scared when we heard banging on the stable door and Joseph told me to stay and hide. He went and answered the door. A family of shepherds came in bursting with stories to tell. One stayed outside with the sheep at first, but he too came running in with his story. They brought tea and cakes and asked to see the baby. Then they told us that angels appeared to them and told them that here in Bethlehem the messiah of the world was born. They were really scared at first and didn't want us to think they were drunk or crazy. The angel sang with such beauty, they couldn't help but come. They sat on the floor sharing the wondrous story as well as their food and tea. Some sang us a bit of the heavenly songs they heard and they all passed the baby around like the most precious gem. They thanked us for letting them see this miracle!

As we went back to bed after they left, Joseph and I talked about how God is always affirming and loving us, even in strange lands and strange times. I will write again soon. I cannot wait for you to see him!

Love always,

Mary

Christmas Eve - Mary Letter Day Twenty One

1 God is our refuge and strength,

a very present help in trouble. 

2 Therefore we will not fear, 

though the earth be moved,

and though the mountains be toppled

into the depths of the sea; 

3 Though its waters rage and foam,

and though the mountains

tremble at its tumult. 

4 The Lord of hosts is with us; 

the God of Jacob is our stronghold.

5 There is a river whose streams

make glad the city of God, 

the holy habitation of the Most High.

6 God is in the midst of her; 

she shall not be overthrown; 

God shall help her at the break of day. 

7 The nations make much ado, 

and the kingdoms are shaken;

God has spoken, and the earth shall melt away. 

8 The Lord of hosts is with us; 

the God of Jacob is our stronghold. 

9 Come now and look upon the works of the Lord,

what awesome things he has done on earth. 

10 It is he who makes war to cease in all the world; 

he breaks the bow, and shatters the spear,

and burns the shields with fire. 

11 "Be still, then, and know that I am God; 

I will be exalted among the nations;

I will be exalted in the earth." 

12 The Lord of hosts is with us;

the God of Jacob is our stronghold. Psalm 46

Dear Auntie,

Oh, I am so terrified! The pains are upon me, not too close apart yet. I woke up this morning and my legs and the bed were wet! I was so embarrassed! Joseph helped me get cleaned up and then he ran to get Rachel, at the inn. She came and shooed him away, sending him to get the wise woman she knows who'll help me with the birth. I wanted to be home!!

Please pray for me today, Auntie. It all seemed so easy at first when I said yes. I guess being naive is a good thing but now the pain and being so far away from home have me frightened. The world is not a kind place, and this city is teeming with people and everyone seems so angry. The wise woman is coming, so I'll have to keep this short. I will write to Mama and Papa when the baby has arrived safely, and we both are well and strong. I'm so scared but try to remember the angel's words and all your encouragement.  I know the Lord is with us and that we will make it to the other side. It doesn't feel that way right now, but I will trust and pray.

love,

Mary

Mary Letter Day Twenty

1 For God alone my soul in silence waits;

from him comes my salvation.

2 He alone is my rock and my salvation,

my stronghold, 

so that I shall not be greatly shaken. 

3 How long will you assail me to crush me,

all of you together, * 

as if you were a leaning fence, a toppling wall?

4 They seek only to bring me down

from my place of honor; 

lies are their chief delight. 

5 They bless with their lips, 

but in their hearts they curse. 

6 For God alone my soul in silence waits;

truly, my hope is in him. 

7 He alone is my rock and my salvation,

my stronghold, so that I shall not be shaken. 

8 In God is my safety and my honor;

God is my strong rock and my refuge. 

9 Put your trust in him always, O people, 

pour out your hearts before him, 

for God is our refuge. 

 Psalm 62:1-9

Dear Auntie,

I have been very discouraged these past few days. Joseph has made little headway in getting an appointment to register and pay his taxes. He has been trying so hard and waiting so long. He hates to leave me alone all day long but often returns with food already prepared so we can sit down together and eat. I am so big I really don't feel like eating very much. There's no room left! And to top it off, I had some pains! It's too early! I want to be home with Mama and Papa! I will not tell my parents any of this because I do not want to frighten or worry them.

Today, while Joseph was out, Rachel from the inn came to check on me. She has been so kind and concerned; I told her about the pain I have been having. She quickly rushed to a neighbor's house and brought the local wise woman. Before I knew what was happening, the wise woman was examining me, everywhere! She was gentle and kind, wrinkled all over, with a smile that lights up everyone. She was almost jubilant when she told me the baby is coming any day now, maybe even tonight! I started crying so loud the chickens and other birds flew out of the barn. Rachel and the wise woman got me calmed down and promised me they would be with me and help me through it.

Oh, Elizabeth, I so want to be home now. The city smells and is so loud. I ache for the quiet of our village and my family. I have been taking your advice and reciting the psalms of King David. It has helped me to calm down. Yet, I wish I was stronger and more faithful. I will do whatever the Lord asks, but some days, like today, I really don't feel prepared or capable. Joseph will be back soon, and I'll share the news. I think it will only make him more worried. I hope he won't be upset with me and I hope the little one is okay. He's been very quiet lately, and I suppose there is not much room to move around at all. Pray for us, Auntie, we really need it!

Love Mary

Fourth Sunday of Advent - Mary Letter Day Nineteen

My soul proclaims the greatness of the Lord,

my spirit rejoices in God my Savior;

for he has looked with favor on his lowly servant.

From this day all generations will call me blessed:

the Almighty has done great things for me, 

and holy is his Name. 

 He has mercy on those who fear him

in every generation. 

He has shown the strength of his arm,

he has scattered the proud in their conceit. 

He has cast down the mighty from their thrones,

and has lifted up the lowly. 

He has filled the hungry with good things,

and the rich he has sent away empty.

He has come to the help of his servant Israel,

for he has remembered his promise of mercy, 

The promise he made to our fathers,

to Abraham and his children forever. Luke 1:46-55

Dear Auntie Elizabeth,

We have finally arrived in Bethlehem. I don't know what I expected, but I did not expect the overwhelming stench of people and animals. Nor did I expect the crowds so dense and thick, everyone pushing and shoving, and no one her seems to be anything but rude. To top that off, despite the fact that Joseph had let his aunt know we were coming, she had an overflow of family returning for the same reason and could not fit us in. I broke down, Auntie, I couldn't help it. I am so big and awkward and everything hurts. I had nothing left and slipped down to the ground along a wall and wept. Poor Joseph, he was upset as well and tried to comfort me. I feel like I've given my all to the Lord, yet all these bad things and challenges keep happening. I do remember your words that "when we draw close to God,  Satan tries so hard to undo our faith." I guess I couldn't be any closer to God since I am carrying this child, the offspring of the Most High.

The good news is that a kind man saw me weeping and stopped to find out if we were hurt. Joseph explained the situation and the man kindly offered us a private space in one of his stables. He owns an inn which he said was overflowing and people are fighting with him day and night. He went ahead of us and set us up with linens and blankets, along with sectioning off an area away from the animals. Most are out working and feeding in the fields or carrying burdens. There are quite a few chickens running around but they are mostly curious and huddling together away from the chill. The man who helped us, Aaron, has a wife is named Rachel, and she brought us the most delicious soup and bread! After we ate, she came back and told me to rest and that she would stay with me while Joseph went to register. I don't know what was in the soup, but I was out in about ten minutes.

When Joeph came back, he was very discouraged. The lines were long and after waiting for hours, he was only able to make an appointment for some time next week! People in line were telling him of their horrible experiences, so he told me we were doing better than most. Pray for us, so that this can go quickly and I can get home to Mama.

Much love,

Mary

Mary Letter Day Eighteen

1 Save me, O God, by your Name;

in your might, defend my cause. 

2 Hear my prayer, O God; 

give ear to the words of my mouth.

3 For the arrogant have risen up against me,

and the ruthless have sought my life,

those who have no regard for God.

4 Behold, God is my helper;

it is the Lord who sustains my life. 

5 Render evil to those who spy on me;

in your faithfulness, destroy them.

6 I will offer you a freewill sacrifice

and praise your Name, O Lord, for it is good. 

7 For you have rescued me from every trouble,

and my eye has seen the ruin of my foes.

 Psalm 54

Dear Mama and Papa,

We are so close to Bethlehem we can see the city far in the distance! We should be there before daybreak tomorrow. Our travels have been slower than we had hoped as we have encountered busy roads, even at night, crowded with people! It seems many people have been called by the government to show their papers and pay their taxes in person. Some other travelers have told us that they have heard rumors about the long lines and unhelpful Roman scribes who handle the papers and the taxes. Some have even told of the ruthless practices which demand extra money in order to process the papers. I pray none of this is true so we can come speedily back home.

Joseph has proven to be very kind and compassionate, despite the fact that he has never had to deal with an expectant mother! Even though we feel the pressure to hurry, he takes his time and makes me stop often to rest. Last night, we stopped at the camp of some shepherds, who were sitting around the fire with their families. They invited us to sit with them for a while and gave us tea and cakes. One of their little girls came and sat with us. She was so sweet and curious. She wanted to touch my belly, and her father scolded her, but I told him it was fine. She put her hands gently on me and then began reciting some psalms and then said a prayer. It was so lovely, the whole experience. I really felt blessed and reenergized when we continued on our journey. I have to remember to see the beauty in every moment, even when I am afraid and far from home. I cannot wait to be back with you and to tell you all our tales in person!

Much love,

Mary

Mary Letter Day Seventeen

1 The Lord, the God of gods, has spoken;

he has called the earth from the rising 

of the sun to its setting. 

2 Out of Zion, perfect in its beauty,

God reveals himself in glory.

3 Our God will come and

will not keep silence; 

before him there is a consuming flame,

and round about him a raging storm. 

4 He calls the heavens 

and the earth from above

to witness the judgment of his people. 

5 "Gather before me my loyal followers,

those who have made a covenant with me

and sealed it with sacrifice." 

6 Let the heavens declare 

the rightness of his cause;

for God himself is judge.

7 Hear, O my people, and I will speak: 

"O Israel, I will bear witness against you;

for I am God, your God. 

8 I do not accuse you 

because of your sacrifices; 

your offerings are always before me. 

9 I will take no bull-calf from your stalls,

nor he-goats out of your pens; 

10 For all the beasts of the forest are mine, 

the herds in their thousands upon the hills. 

11 I know every bird in the sky,

and the creatures of the fields are in my sight. Psalm 50:1-11

Dear Auntie Elizabeth,

Thank you for understanding that I cannot tell Mama and Papa about the hard times on this journey. They have worried so much about me, had to defend me when I was still home and fought off attacks from neighbors and folks who used to be friends. I'm not sure their hearts can much more. I am grateful for your love and support in these strange times.

The road to Bethlehem has been crowded, even at night. We have made slow progress, since both riding and walking are more and more difficult every day. Joseph and I recite the psalms of king David as we walk, and sometimes we sing, just to keep our spirits up. People often get angry with our slow progress and push past us in the dark. Last night I fell again, since a few young men were almost running and side swiped us as they went. Others on the road helped me up and Joseph had me sit on a big rock by the side of the road until I got my breath and wits back. We had hoped to be in Bethlehem tomorrow, but our hosts, Naomi and Samuel are insistent we stay longer. They saw how rattled I was, and they are almost as worried as my parents. Naomi is convinced that the baby is coming soon, much sooner than we hoped or planned. I am so hoping she is wrong, and I fear she is right. The little one seems to be riding much lower than before and I have a lot of pressure on my hips. I just want to get home to Mama before it happens!

Love,

Mary

Mary Letter Day Sixteen

49 Remember your word to your servant, 

 because you have given me hope. 

50 This is my comfort in my trouble,

 that your promise gives me life. 

51 The proud have derided me cruelly,

 but I have not turned from your law. 

52 When I remember your judgments of old, 

O Lord, I take great comfort. 

53 I am filled with a burning rage,

because of the wicked who forsake your law.

54 Your statutes have been like songs to me

wherever I have lived as a stranger. 

55 I remember your Name in the night, O Lord,

and dwell upon your law. 

56 This is how it has been with me,

because I have kept your commandments. 

Psalm 119:49-56

Dear Papa and Mama,

We are making slow progress but getting close to Bethlehem. Traveling at night, the stars and the night sky has been glorious. I guess I have never spent this amount of time outside at night and haven't been this far from home. It has given me a whole new perspective on our land and our world. Joseph has been pointing out the constellations and telling me the stories that go along with them. I was so fearful of this new life, this life of being married and carrying a child. The good news is that, despite this journey and all the challenges, it has been wonderful, really. Joseph is so kind and he is good at making me laugh. 

We stayed a while with your friends Anna and David. They are quite elderly and sometimes have nodded off while we were talking. But they are very sweet and their home is lovely. They made us so comfortable! Anna is a wide woman and so she checked me out to make sure the baby was ok. Her ancient hands were so gentle, and she taught me so much about what to expect and how to breathe through all of the pains that will come. I wish she could travel home with me during the delivery, but she's not traveling anymore.

I can't wait to be home again with you! Joseph promises that we will return in time for the delivery. I get worried when I see so many other folks on the road heading in the same direction. There's nothing to do, except for trust in the Lord.

Love,

Mary

Mary Letter Day Fifteen

1 My heart is stirring with a noble song;

 let me recite what I have fashioned for the king;

 my tongue shall be the pen of a skilled writer. 

 2 You are the fairest of men;

 grace flows from your lips, 

because God has blessed you for ever. 

3 Strap your sword upon your thigh, 

O mighty warrior, 

in your pride and in your majesty. 

4 Ride out and conquer in the cause of truth

 and for the sake of justice. 

5 Your right hand will show you marvelous things; 

 your arrows are very sharp, O mighty warrior. 

6 The peoples are falling at your feet, 

and the king's enemies are losing heart. 

7 Your throne, O God, endures for ever and ever, 

a scepter of righteousness is the scepter

of your kingdom; you love 

righteousness and hate iniquity. 

8 Therefore God, your God, has anointed you 

with the oil of gladness above your fellows.

9 All your garments are fragrant 

with myrrh, aloes, and cassia, 

and the music of strings from ivory palaces

makes you glad. Psalm 45:1-9

Dear Mama and Papa,

Sorry I didn't write immediately but I want to let you know all is well. We had a good initial few miles on the first night but stumbled on the road and both got a few scrapes. Cousin Jacob, Sarah and the girls have been so kind to us. They insisted we stay an extra day since I am with child. Yes, they're being overprotective and yet their company is so lovely. The girls sing all the time and Jacob plays the lyre so well. It is a happy place to be. We will be setting out tonight as the sun sets and have been napping on and off all day. They have kept our bellies full of great food, so we are ready to doze off at any moment.

Mama, I wish we could hurry this trip and get back to you as quickly as possible.  I guess there are delays in every journey. We are moving as fast as possible but I have learned that this body doesn't move very fast. When I tire at all, Joseph insists I ride the donkey which is so kind. Riding a donkey with this large belly is quite a feat of balance! And the ride is much bumpier than I expected. My back side is very sore after riding for a few hours!

Joseph is taking very good care of me. He stops for a rest every little while, insisting I drink water and have a small snack. I wasn't sure how this trip would go, or if we would find reasons to argue and be grumpy. I have been pleasantly surprised. Joseph is kinder and sweeter than I could have ever hoped. He is a bit awkward around any conversation about the pregnancy or the birth, but otherwise, he has been willing and able to help in any way he can.

Pray for us for the nights are dark and the journey is long.

Love,

Mary

Mary Letter Day Fourteen

1 You tyrant, why do you boast of wickedness

 against the godly all day long? 

2 You plot ruin; your tongue

 is like a sharpened razor,

 O worker of deception. 

3 You love evil more than good

 and lying more than speaking the truth 

4 You love all words that hurt, 

 O you deceitful tongue. 

5 Oh, that God would demolish you utterly, 

 topple you, and snatch you from your dwelling, 

and root you out of the land of the living! 

6 The righteous shall see and tremble,

and they shall laugh at him, saying, 

7 "This is the one who did not take God for a refuge, 

 but trusted in great wealth and relied upon wickedness."

8 But I am like a green olive tree in the house of God; 

 I trust in the mercy of God for ever and ever. 

9 I will give you thanks for what you have done

 and declare the goodness of your Name 

in the presence of the godly. Psalm 52

Dear Auntie,

I am writing late at night after our first day of travel. I will tell you what I cannot tell Mama and Papa, as I do not want them to be afraid and angry. We waited to leave as the sun was setting, figuring that our leaving should be done quietly as darkness fell. The first few miles were fine, and we have a small lamp to guide our steps. We were at the far outskirts of town when several young men from our village stopped up. There was a good deal of shouting, and they tried to push me off the donkey. They were shouting terrible things at Joseph, saying I should be stoned for my offences. He kept himself between me and the men when they tried to grab and shove at me. We finally both fell to the ground from their shoving, but fortunately, a stranger passed by, coming into town, a big burly man, and scared them off. He helped us both up, made sure we were all right and hurried after the boys. We were so grateful but forgot to ask the man's name. We sat by the road for a bit, gathering our courage and dusting ourselves off. Joseph decided that after that incident, we would have to do all of our traveling after dark. 

Auntie, we are safe now in Cousin Jacob's house. I think we must have looked quite frightful when we arrive. Jacob's wife Sarah and their daughters came rushing out and seeing our disheveled appearance, check us all over for cuts and scrapes. We both were more banged up than we realized since we were so desperate to get to safety! We have been told we are staying an extra night here so they can make sure that me and the baby aren't hurt. I feel fine, really, just very disappointed in other human beings. Why do they have to come after us? We were leaving town, leaving home, what more could they want? I will never understand how good, faithful people can be so cruel.

We will rest here and be grateful for now that nothing worse happened. And tomorrow we will be checked over and maybe set free to travel once again. I will write my parents and tell them all is well, they have so much, and I don't want to add to their worry. Please pray for us!

love, 

Mary

Third Sunday of Advent - Mary Letter Day Thirteen

Third Sunday of Advent -Mary Letter Day Thirteen

Surely, it is God who saves me;

I will trust in him and not be afraid. 

For the Lord is my stronghold and my sure defense,

and he will be my Savior. 

Therefore you shall draw water with rejoicing

from the springs of salvation. 

And on that day you shall say,

Give thanks to the Lord 

and call upon his Name; 

Make his deeds known among the peoples;

see that they remember that his Name is exalted. 

Sing the praises of the Lord, for he has done great things, 

and this is known in all the world. 

Cry aloud, inhabitants of Zion, ring out your joy,

for the great one in the midst of you is the Holy One of Israel. Isaiah 12:2-6

Dear Auntie Elizabeth,

Things are getting pretty desperate around here. The community is rallying around some leaders who want to have me punished. Several angry men showed up at our door the other night and demanded to come in and arrest me. Papa barred them from coming in and he and Joseph went out to speak to them. Fortunately, they did not have any legal authority and did not have any Roman guards with them. These men don't approve of the occupying government, of course none of us do, and I think they are taking their anger out on us. The conversation with Papa and Joseph was loud and scared Mama and I terribly. We clung together praying that our Lord would see us through the challenge. When Papa and Joseph finally came back inside, their anger was visible on their faces, although they said nothing about it. They told us both to hurry up and prepare for our departure. 

Since that night, we have been cooking and sewing like mad, getting supplies ready for our journey. Because they fear for me especially, Papa and Joseph are pouring over maps to find a route that will circumvent trouble as much as possible. This will make the trip much longer. The plan is to stay away from main roads and the highways, so that we aren't easily targeted. Joseph and Papa are arranging places for us to stay each night as we travel to Bethlehem. I guess before I was pretty ignorant of what people might do, but now I can say I am truly terrified. Joseph promises to keep me safe, although I can read the worry and fear on Mama's face most clearly. She does her best to hide it, but it is always there.

I doubt I will get the chance to see you before the baby is born, although I was really hoping to see little John. I am so sorry and very disappointed. I keep reminding myself that I said yes to the Lord, and that our God will protect us. I remember your words when we were together, how you told me not to fear for God was in charge.  I try to take that to heart, being cheerful as we go about our tasks, reminding Mama that God is with us. We are human, Auntie, and sometimes the worries and fears get to us and we sit a cry together when the men aren't around. Please pray for us, as I want to be strong and fear I cannot be.

Love always,

Mary

Mary Letter Day Twelve

1 In you, O Lord, 

have I taken refuge;

 let me never be put to shame; 

deliver me in your righteousness. 

2 Incline your ear to me; 

make haste to deliver me.  

3 Be my strong rock, 

a castle to keep me safe, 

for you are my crag

 and my stronghold;

for the sake of your Name, 

lead me and guide me. 

4 Take me out of the net that 

they have secretly set for me, 

for you are my tower of strength. 

5 Into your hands 

I commend my spirit, 

for you have redeemed me, 

O Lord, O God of truth. 

Psalm 31:1-5

Dear Auntie Elizabeth,

We are married! Oh, I had dreams since I was a little girl that my wedding would be glorious with a large party and lots of music and dancing. We are married, but the dreams I had did not match the day. It was just seven of us, Cousin Eli, the rabbi, his wife and young son along with the four of us in this household. We didn't dare announce it anywhere or have music and dancing to alert the neighbors. Mama made a splendid feast, and Papa made a sweet toast. We were careful to keep our celebration quiet because folks have been so very cruel. And yet, when all was said and done, we are married and happy about it. Joseph can now stay with me here as my husband. I'm still learning how to even say that!

Auntie, Joseph has been so tender and kind. He decided, before the wedding, that until the baby is delivered, he will sleep on a separate cot in my room. He wants to protect me and does not want to do anything to harm the baby. He sees that I am "great" with child and want me to have to whole bed. He did not say this, but I know he's a bit nervous around me in my condition. I know he has taken on a great responsibility by marrying me. He wants to do right by me, my family and the Lord. We talk into the night, every night, and I fall asleep to the sound of his voice. It makes me feel safe in these dangerous days.

I have heard your little boy John is thriving, getting fat on his mother's milk! And Papa said that Zechariah is overjoyed to be a father and to talk again. They can't keep him quiet Papa said! I am so grateful for your letters and your prayers!

Love,

Mary

Mary Letter Day Eleven

1 Do not fret yourself because of evildoers

 do not be jealous of those who do wrong. 

2 For they shall soon wither like the grass,

 and like the green grass fade away. 

3 Put your trust in the Lord and do good;

dwell in the land and feed on its riches. 

4 Take delight in the Lord, 

and he shall give you your heart's desire. 

5 Commit your way to the Lord

 and put your trust in him, 

 and he will bring it to pass. 

6 He will make your righteousness 

as clear as the light and your just dealing as the noonday.

7 Be still before the Lord and wait patiently for him. 

8 Do not fret yourself over the one who prospers,

the one who succeeds in evil schemes.

9 Refrain from anger, leave rage alone;

do not fret yourself; it leads only to evil. 

10 For evildoers shall be cut off, 

 but those who wait upon the Lord shall possess the land. Psalm 37:1-11

Dear Aunt Elizabeth,

It has been quite a busy few weeks. I really thought I would be bored, having to stay at home, not being able to go into the town and to the market, but every moment we have kept beyond busy. Mama is finishing my dress for the ceremony, and between trying it on and sewing small things for the baby, we have kept very busy. We have been cooking all day, every day as well. Since we will be traveling soon, Mama is cooking and drying food like a fiend. And Papa is busy making travel arrangements, including bartering for a donkey to carry our packs and me from time to time. Joseph is here all the time and after the ceremony tomorrow, he will be able to move in with us.

Yesterday was a little overwhelming. The wise woman came and checked me out, thoroughly! I was so embarrassed as she didn't hesitate from examining me everywhere. She was gentle, I have to admit, but I was shaking the whole time. She spoke to me about how healthy the baby was, how strong I was, and that she could confirm, much to her shock, that I was indeed a virgin. Mama was in the room in the room the whole time and delighted in all the wise woman's reassurances. The hard news is that she believes I am due to deliver much sooner than we had expected. This trip will have to be hurried up so we can get home again! After she left, we had a conversation with Jospeh and Papa to share the news. They were frustrated but soon when back into planning mode. 

I hope I am up to all of this. Since never going farther away from home than your house, I hope I am not overwhelmed by all the strange people and sights. I often feel so awkward and so young, without the courage needed to deal with what lies ahead. I am worried about the pain of childbirth now, after yesterday, since the wise woman left nothing, I mean nothing out. I am so grateful for her wisdom and now completely terrified.

Much love,

Mary

Mary Letter Day Ten

1 O Lord, do not rebuke me in your anger;

 do not punish me in your wrath. 

2 For your arrows have already pierced me,

 and your hand presses hard upon me. 

3 There is no health in my flesh, 

because of your indignation; 

there is no soundness in my body, 

because of my sin. 

4 For my iniquities overwhelm me;

like a heavy burden they are 

too much for me to bear. 

5 My wounds stink and fester

by reason of my foolishness. 

6 I am utterly bowed down and prostrate;

I go about in mourning all the day long.

7 My loins are filled with searing pain;

 there is no health in my body. 

8 I am utterly numb and crushed;

I wail, because of the groaning of my heart. 

9 O Lord, you know all my desires, 

and my sighing is not hidden from you. 

10 My heart is pounding, my strength has failed me,

and the brightness of my eyes is gone from me. 

11 My friends and companions 

draw back from my affliction;

my neighbors stand afar off. Psalm 38:1-11

Dear Auntie,

I seemed to have grown bigger overnight, and no movement is easy anymore. I watched as you struggled to get up from a chair, and in my ignorance, I thought it was because of your age. Please forgive me. I tried to get up from a kitchen chair and needed Papa to help me up. I am awkward in every step I take and cannot see my feet anymore! One minute I was a slender young girl and now, well now, I waddle like a duck and am round as a ball. Nothing fits anymore, including my shoes, so I am wearing Papa's sandals.

We are planning to have our small little wedding in a few days, as they want us to be legal when we have to travel to Bethlehem. I wish we could have a real celebration with friends and family, but I don't have any friends anymore and it is dangerous to bring any family here. My closest friends won't talk or even look at me and we have been threatened and harassed by so many former neighbors. Mama is making me a dress, sewing all the time, preparing clothing for the baby as well. She stays up all hours, and despite the fact that Papa tells her to go to bed, she still sits up sewing by lantern light.

Joseph has been very attentive, despite all the troubles around us. He has been having meals with us every evening and sits out in the garden with me after dark. He tells me stories of his family and his life and his hopes for our life together. I am not afraid to marry him so much as I feel like I'm not ready to be a wife, let alone a mother. Yet God has called me to this and I will do my best to be faithful. I only wish it was easier at times.

love,

Mary

Mary Letter Day Nine

1 Give judgment for me, O Lord, 

for I have lived with integrity;

I have trusted in the Lord 

and have not faltered. 

2 Test me, O Lord, and try me;

 examine my heart and my mind. 

3 For your love is before my eyes;

 I have walked faithfully with you. 

4 I have not sat with the worthless,

 nor do I consort with the deceitful. 

5 I have hated the company of evildoers;

 I will not sit down with the wicked. 

6 I will wash my hands in innocence, O Lord, 

 that I may go in procession round your altar, 

7 Singing aloud a song of thanksgiving

 and recounting all your wonderful deeds. 

8 Lord, I love the house in which you dwell

and the place where your glory abides.

9 Do not sweep me away with sinners,

 nor my life with those who thirst for blood, 

10 Whose hands are full of evil plots,

 and their right hand full of bribes. 

11 As for me, I will live with integrity;

 redeem me, O Lord, and have pity on me. 

12 My foot stands on level ground;

 in the full assembly I will bless the Lord. Psalm 26

Dear Aunt Elizabeth,

The past week has been very challenging for all of us. Papa was confronted by elders from the temple who told him to consider himself and his family as outcasts. They told him that we are to do our worship of God in private since they do not think that we belong in temple. Our family has brought shame upon the community and upon ourselves. I am so angry and hurt as I know my parents were. You know them, Auntie, they are faithful and humble people, full of charity and kindness. How can our religious leaders cast us out in our time of need? And I feel like I have brought trouble on our household and family. Despite these hard days, we have really been trying to support each other and pray together, despite it all.

Personally, I have also been having some hard days as well. The news that we have to travel to Bethlehem has hit me very hard. I really want to stay here, safely in the arms of parents as the baby as the baby is born. Instead, we have to devise an elaborate and secret plan to get us safely to Bethlehem. I know I'm being selfish, but I am struggling to understand what the Lord wants from me. This is all too much. And on top of it all, tomorrow the wise women come to examine me and I'm terrified! Sometimes, like right now, it seems to me to be more than I can handle.

Auntie, God's plan for me is unfolding in ways that I don't particularly like. I didn't expect ease, but I didn't expect trouble compounded on trouble. Pray for me please, and for Joseph. We are set to be married soon, and he has been so supportive, but he is also so silent sometimes. I pray that God will make me calmer and more patience in the coming days.

Much love,

Mary

Mary Letter Day Eight

1 To you, O Lord, I lift up my soul; 

my God, I put my trust in you; 

let me not be humiliated, 

nor let my enemies triumph over me. 

2 Let none who look to you be put to shame; 

 let the treacherous be disappointed in their schemes. 

3 Show me your ways, O Lord, 

and teach me your paths. 

4 Lead me in your truth and teach me, 

 for you are the God of my salvation; 

in you have I trusted all the day long. 

5 Remember, O Lord, your compassion and love,

 for they are from everlasting. 

 6 Remember not the sins of my youth and my transgressions;

 remember me according to your love 

and for the sake of your goodness,

 O Lord. 

 7 Gracious and upright is the Lord; 

 therefore he teaches sinners in his way. 

 8 He guides the humble in doing right 

 and teaches his way to the lowly. 

 9 All the paths of the Lord are love and faithfulness 

to those who keep his covenant and his testimonies. Psalm 25:1-9

Dear Aunt Elizabeth,

I am so glad to hear that you and your little boy are well and healthy. How good is the Lord? Such good news to know you came through labor and all the challenges of childbirth and have a healthy son. And even more important to me is that you are healing well and are strong. I prayed so hard that you would be all right. You are my role model, and your strength gives me strength.

Things have taken a bit of a turn here. Joseph was informed yesterday that he has to go to register and pay his tax in Bethlehem! We were all so upset and now we have to find a way to keep this child safe and also follow the rules of the occupiers. These people don't care if there is a child coming, and since I will be his wife, we have might have to both be present! Can you imagine the nerve?

The plans are being made furiously now, to get us married and to figure out how to safely travel to Bethlehem and back. I really want to have this baby at home, with my mother by my side. I don't think I can do any of this without her. By the way, Mama has made arrangements to have me examined by some wise women. Fortunately, we have some relations that are willing to come and see me, without bringing more shame on my family. Ruth and Anna and both old and crippled but experts in childbirth and the challenges of this female body.

By the way, I see to get bigger and rounder by the day. The little one is kicking and moving around, especially when I am trying to sleep! Pray for me Auntie and I am always praying for you.

Much love,

Mary

Second Sunday of Advent - Mary Letter Day Seven

Second Sunday of Advent - Mary Letter Day Seven

In the fifteenth year of the reign of Emperor Tiberius, when Pontius Pilate was governor of Judea, and Herod was ruler of Galilee, and his brother Philip ruler of the region of Ituraea and Trachonitis, and Lysanias ruler of Abilene, during the high priesthood of Annas and Caiaphas, the word of God came to John son of Zechariah in the wilderness. He went into all the region around the Jordan, proclaiming a baptism of repentance for the forgiveness of sins, as it is written in the book of the words of the prophet Isaiah, "The voice of one crying out in the wilderness: 'Prepare the way of the Lord, make his paths straight. Every valley shall be filled, and every mountain and hill shall be made low, and the crooked shall be made straight, and the rough ways made smooth; and all flesh shall see the salvation of God.'" Luke 3:1-6

Dear Auntie,

I know you are close to the birthing time and hope you are still feeling strong and healthy. The child you carry is a blessing from God and will do great things in the world. We both have big responsibilities with the offspring our Lord has placed within us, both now as they grow with us and in their growing years to come. I worry that I am not able to be a good mother, let alone able to protect this little one when he arrives. You taught me so much while I was with you, and Mama has been trying to imprint me with all of her wisdom. 

The recent days have been very challenging for us. Mama and I were out doing our marketing before the Sabbath, when several of our favorite merchants, the flour and the fruit sellers, both said terrible things to me, shaming both of us. We were so upset, we ran home and sent Papa out to pick up our purchases. He came back, red-faced and angry. They said terrible things to him as well. Later this week, late at night, a rock flew through one of our windows. Papa wants me to stay inside from now one for my safety, with Mama and Joseph agreeing with him. I feel like a captive, and on top of that, none of my friends will speak to me and they turn away when we are in the streets. So, here I am, a prisoner in my own home. I haven't done anything wrong.

Papa, Mama and Joseph have been making plans for the wedding, which will now have to happen in our house, without nay guests except for our families. Finding a Rabbi who is willing to marry us has been a real problem. We think Joseph's cousin, Simon, a Rabbi from several villages west, is willing to come here and marry us. He is young and fearless, thank the Lord!

I try to be brave, Auntie, but some days it is really hard. I go out to the garden, late at night to say my prayers and to look at the night sky. It gives me comfort and helps me relax so I can sleep. The cool night air reminds me of our many nights together, staring up at the stars, pondering the mystery of why we were chosen to bring God's love into the world. The world doesn't seem to want it! Pray for me and I am praying for you.

Love 

Mary

Mary Letter Day Six

1 Protect me, O God, 

for I take refuge in you; 

I have said to the Lord, 

"You are my Lord, 

my good above all other."

2 All my delight is upon the godly

 that are in the land, 

upon those who are noble 

among the people. 

 3 But those who run after other gods 

 shall have their troubles multiplied. 

 4 Their libations of blood 

I will not offer,

 nor take the names 

of their gods upon my lips. 

 5 O Lord, you are my portion 

and my cup; 

 it is you who uphold my lot. 

 6 My boundaries enclose 

a pleasant land; 

 indeed, I have a goodly heritage. 

 7 I will bless the Lord who gives me counsel; 

 my heart teaches me, night after night. 

 8 I have set the Lord always before me; 

 because he is at my right hand I shall not fall. 

 9 My heart, therefore, is glad, and my spirit rejoices; 

 my body also shall rest in hope. 

10 For you will not abandon me to the grave,

 nor let your holy one see the Pit. 

11 You will show me the path of life; 

 in your presence there is fullness of joy,

 and in your right hand are pleasures for evermore. Psalm 16

Dear Auntie,

I am safely home, and it is late at night as I write to you. Joseph was indeed very careful as Papa had instructed, and we were able to talk for the roads were not overly busy. We haven't had much time alone to talk through all that has happened, so it was a good journey in that way. He is very supportive, although I know he's a bit scared and neither of us has all the answers to our own questions. We laughed a good deal about the circumstances we find ourselves in, knowing no one would believe that we are the caretakers of the son of God. It's even scary to say out loud. 

We had a bit of trouble as we approached our village. Rumors have been circulating about why I was away, and the gossips assumed the worst of me. Several young men threw rotten fruit at us as we passed their stand. I covered up with the scarf you gave me, and Joseph tried to cover us both. We were a mess when we arrived home! Mama thought I had been bleeding or something I guess, by the look on her face. It was kind of comical and later, at supper, we laughed about it. But this is no joke, people are ready to condemn me. And Joseph as well as my parents! How cruel people are!

I am tired from my trip but so glad to be at home again. Mama wrapped me in her arms and wouldn't let me go for a long time. I know this is hard on both of them, and they are trying to make the best of it. I can see in their faces the worry they carry. Please pray for us. Serving our Lord is never as easy as people say it is. Our God give us gifts and they can also be great challenges. I have to trust the Lord will see us through.

Much love,

Mary

Mary Letter Day Five

‘My soul magnifies the Lord, 

 and my spirit rejoices in God my Savior, 

for he has looked with favor on 

the lowliness of his servant. 

 Surely, from now on all generations 

will call me blessed; 

for the Mighty One has done 

great things for me, 

 and holy is his name. 

His mercy is for those who fear him

 from generation to generation. 

He has shown strength with his arm; 

 he has scattered the proud in 

the thoughts of their hearts. 

He has brought down

the powerful from their thrones, 

and lifted up the lowly; 

he has filled the hungry with good things, 

 and sent the rich away empty. 

He has helped his servant Israel,

 in remembrance of his mercy, 

according to the promise 

he made to our ancestors,

to Abraham and to his descendants forever.’ Luke 1:46-55

Dear Mama and Papa,

First, I want to thank you for several things. I am so grateful for you allowing me to spend all this time with Auntie Elizabeth. She has helped me with so much! I am no longer afraid of what God has in store for me, despite all the real dangers that lie ahead. I am also so thankful that you accepted Joseph's request that we would be married when I get home! I know this is not what you hoped for, and the wedding will have to be so small and with no guests. Yet, your open hearts and kindness has really encouraged me and given me hope. Despite it all your love and support will see me through.

I am so looking forward to coming home. I am growing very round, and it will be hard to hide my circumstances. I am happy to stay hidden at home, if that's what you think is best. I know it is hard to believe that this is a miracle child, a gift from our Lord, yet I am growing stronger and stronger in faith in these last days. I have found myself singing joyfully in the strangest moments, as if the little one inside of me is making me stronger by the day. 

Joseph will be here soon for the trip home. Auntie insists that we travel slowly and take many stops so that I may rest. I think she is being over cautious. I am excited to be home again but will be careful since I now have another life to protect. Please pray for safe and quick travel for our journey.

Love,

Mary

Mary Letter Day Four

1 How long, O Lord? will you 

   forget me for ever?

    how long will you hide 

    your face from me? 

2 How long shall I have 

    perplexity in my mind, 

  and grief in my heart, 

    day after day?

     how long shall my enemy 

    triumph over me? 

3 Look upon me and answer me, 

    O Lord my God;

  give light to my eyes,

     lest I sleep in death; 

4 Lest my enemy say, "I have prevailed over him,"

  and my foes rejoice that I have fallen. 

5 But I put my trust in your mercy;

  my heart is joyful because of your saving help. 

6 I will sing to the Lord, 

    or he has dealt with me richly; 

    I will praise the Name of the Lord Most High.

     Psalm 13

Dear Mama and Papa,

I have made it safely to Aunt Elizabeth's home. Joseph drove the cart carefully and well. We had much time to talk, and he shared with me the dream he had. An angel spoke to him in a dream and told him that I was carrying the son of the most high. The angel told Joseph to not be afraid and to protect us in every way possible. Despite everything he wishes to marry me! I told him of my dreams, especially the one where the angel told me not to be afraid that God was with me. We both laughed and admitted we are still terrified!

I know all of this is so very hard for you. You have been so loving and supportive throughout my life. And this put you in danger as well as me. And I know, somehow, some way, our Lord will use this for the good of many. I appreciate you giving me time with Auntie. She has already cheered me up and made me laugh. She kidded about how the Lord had silenced her husband. And she too is afraid, because of her age and all. Yet she has really been encouraging me and teaching me what I need to know. 

Joseph should have returned by now. I think he will want to make wedding arrangements with you. It will have to be done quietly. And Papa, I hope you will be kind to him. He's scared and worried that he is taking on more than he can handle. Pray for us, please. I need you love and support now more than ever.

love,

Mary

Mary Letter Day Three

1 Happy are they whose 

    way is blameless,

   who walk in the law of the Lord! 

2 Happy are they who

 observe his decrees

  and seek him with all their hearts! 

3 Who never do any wrong, 

  but always walk in his ways. 

4 You laid down your commandments,

  that we should fully keep them. 

5 Oh, that my ways were 

    made so direct

  that I might keep your statutes!

6 Then I should not be put to shame,

   when I regard all your                 commandments.

7 I will thank you with an 

    unfeigned heart, 

  when I have learned 

your righteous judgments.

8 I will keep your statutes; 

   do not utterly forsake me. Psalm 119:1-8

Dear Aunt Elizabeth,

I did a very hard thing last night. I told Mama and Papa about my situation, promising I had never been with a man. They immediately called for Joseph, who was shocked at the news. Auntie, he's a good man and very kind, but I could see the anger and confusion on his face. He said very little, leaning back while Papa fired question after question at me. I felt like a naughty child. I tried to explain about my dreams and how an angel of the Lord told me that Yahweh has made a miracle of me and the child, to bring peace and love to the world. Papa tried to believe me but finally burst out with, "but girls don't have prophetic dreams, angels don't visit girls, and our God does not talk directly to women!" I couldn't hold back the tears. It was awful. 

I was up early this morning, at first light, to go sit by the water and pray. I hadn't slept much during the night. My head was spinning, and my heart was pounding. I really didn't know what to do. I finally waded into the water to cool my spirit and draw myself close to the waters of life. Somehow it calmed me and gave me some comfort. I went back home and asked if I could take some time to visit with you and Zachariah. They were reluctant at first but the realized I would be out of their hair for a few days, and they would have time to think and pray.

I am so glad to be coming to spend time with you. The anxiety and tension at home here is more than I can bear! Thank you for opening your home to me!

Much love,

Mary

Between Heaven and Earth - Mary Letter Day Two

One day, as he was teaching the people in the temple and telling the good news, the chief priests and the scribes came with the elders and said to him, ‘Tell us, by what authority are you doing these things? Who is it who gave you this authority?’ He answered them, ‘I will also ask you a question, and you tell me: Did the baptism of John come from heaven, or was it of human origin?’ They discussed it with one another, saying, ‘If we say, “From heaven”, he will say, “Why did you not believe him?” But if we say, “Of human origin”, all the people will stone us; for they are convinced that John was a prophet.’ So they answered that they did not know where it came from. Then Jesus said to them, ‘Neither will I tell you by what authority I am doing these things.’ Luke 20:1-8

Dear Auntie Elizabeth, 

I have heard from Mama that you are with child! I am so excited for you and a little bit afraid as well. This is a blessing from heaven, of course, but it is ever so challenging on your body. I have not yet told Mama of my bodily concerns as I want her to revel in your joy. I pray you will take care of yourself and be strong. I find being out in the open air, in our garden, makes me feel less afraid. Somehow, I feel buoyed between heaven and earth, caught up in possibilities rather than all my fears. I have been sick in the garden too, where no one can see me. I have had so many vivid dreams lately. It is as if the Lord is speaking to me directly, showing me signs of hope and possibility. 

Auntie, I really don't know what to do. At some point I will have to talk with Joseph and my parents. Joseph will probably walk away from me, and my loving parents will probably send me away. Oh, I don't know what to do, Auntie, and feel like a child running back and forth. I pray all through the day and when I wake up at night. Please pray for me that our Lord will send me a way through this mess. Maybe I can come visit with you and gain courage from you.

Love,

Mary